Tikva Eibik

And as such, these may explain some of my mental quirks…

Righto, I want to know what moronic prick decided to put hard reboot buttons on the front of computers. Mine in particular – as it is so over-sensetive that even a nudge of the foot instantly kills and resets my machine.
This happens about once a week, normally when I’m 2 minutes away from a save point after having defeated a near-impossible boss in some game.

Well this time, it appears the timing was exactly wrong.
Machine reboots, oh feck, nevermind, I for once wasn’t actually doing anything important. I wander off to get a drink, return and realise – my computer is taking a hell of a long time to start up. I glance at the screen, and the BIOS is stuck on an error, telling me my Primary Master is bad and needs replacement. My Primary Master being the 250 Gig I have had since Christmas ‘06. Well, I’m now pissed off – but it’s OK, I can make a backup and go from there, I already have a backup drive installed, I just need to make another backup and hope it doesn’t somehow de-format itself again.

So I hit F1 and on goes the hyperbolic transfer of data through various components, then…
“NTLDR is missing
Press Ctrl+Alt+Del to reboot”
This looks bad to me, even more so given that the keyboard doesn’t appear to be working… but I try again, and again.. nothing. ‘Tis dead.

Ah well, it looks like a system file got wiped in the reboot, that’s OK, we’ll just boot off the Windows CD and fix it.

…Except it seems the drivers for my CD drive got destroyed as well.

I finally managed to get it to boot MS-DOS from a Win98 floppy disk. And there was me thinking my floppy drive hadn’t worked in 6 years. Then spent 5 minutes being worried before realising that the reason nothing was going was that I was using my USB keyboard, which my highly advanced 3 1/2 inch OS didn’t support.

So, time to remove the hard drive, stick it in the other computer, and see exactly what’s gone on.
Good news: my files are mostly still there.
Bad news: No more boot sector, and a distinct lack of system files.

However, after several hours of copying, editting, and swearing at boot.inis and the like, she lives! It also turns out that, somehow, even though I boot off C: (my 250 Gig), D: (backup drive) was set as Primary Master.. and so is the drive with problems. wtf mate o.O

I now have a large masking tape pad over my reset button.

So, that was of NTLDRs, and so, of Akita.

Our lovely Lady Akita is leaving TM, onoes! We’ll miss you hun, you’re an amazing person. :)
Much love and snuggles, and lots of wishes for much happiness!

(Let me point out to ye MTS2ers, this is someone more, yes, MORE mature for her age than JohnBrehaut – ’tis possible!!)

So IRC is closed… and it strikes me that almost everyone in there works on a fair-weather basis.

It’s a partition of a server, with some software installed, with an owner and a staff team, who got fed up of crap. It’s not the end of the world that this server has closed – there’s a whole new channel which is almost exactly the same. Except I, HP, kitty, Delph, coke, Pf, Star, and all no longer have to deal with it… hooray!
Every time there’s an explosion, it hits me anew how bitchy people are.
I’m not talking about Kelly this time… she’s bitch enough, sure, but she’s hilarious really, the way I pwn her ass on every comment, and God I can’t wait until the next blow falls… I love antagonising that twat :D

No, I mean everyone else… people like photo, P-epsi, lilley, ffs curly… it’s pretty discouraging to know that people who you count as good friends, or those you just know fairly well, will instantly turn everything on your shoulders and the shoulders of people who are also good friends and who previously, weren’t demonised, just because… why? Because they failed to take into account the rules and are now regretting the results, of which they were perfectly well forewarned?
Well to be perfectly fucking honest, I don’t care if people agree with, or even understand the logic of, the decision – I just wish they were capable of seeing that their relationships are far more important than their self-righteous bloody anger.

And I really, really fucking wish that I didn’t have to see my friends – Delph, HP, coke, Starshine, and more – getting attacked because people feel the need to lay blame.

I know you don’t agree, I know you think you had some infinitesimal right to be forewarned even more than you were and, basically, given the decision for yourselves – but in the end it was Delphy’s server, he had the right to shut it down at any time – the MOTD has always said that “Usage of this server is a privilege, NOT a right, and failure to abide by the rules can cause you to lose that privilege.”, and guys, you failed to abide by the rules, and you lost the privilege. Nothing you can do now, so please, please, just accept it…
“Yeah. I almost felt bad right after as there was a great wailing whine and some of them I do actually like – but the ones that flew off the handle and said their fuck yous really make it hard to feel too sorry about it. -Had- everyone gone “Wow, this is really sad, but we understand, okay, thanks for the good times,” I think…… there might have actually been some reconsidering, or at least more likely to do so a little bit down the road”

It seems you guys don’t know how much you mean to me, or how much you’ve inadvertently done for me… remember the new years video – except those, of course, who decided I was whining and being emo… it’s a shame all the friendships made here appear to be worth jack shit.

Interesting few weeks…

I’ve split with my ex, at last. It’s kind of a shame, I care about him a lot… but a few good friends showed me that I can’t let myself be treated like shit (second-grade shit, at that), and they’re right… so that chapter is over. And I wish my man-whore and his new(ish) bitch every happiness :D

Also positively, I have an appointment at 8am tomorrow (gah!) with Helen Stacey, Head of House at my school, to discuss the imminent prospect of my homeschooling. Given that my attendance has dropped from nearly 100% to 60-80% a week in recent months, mostly because I wake up to find myself unable to face that Godawful place and so am, stupidly, physically incapable of getting out of bed, alongside a host of other, far more “Donnie Darko” reasons.
The work is no problem for me – I even enjoy some of it. It’s the environment. I have convinced my German student teacher that I am a moron, through my inability for one lesson to understand anything anyone said – in German or English. And if I’m expending all my concentration on not screaming, throwing something, or up and leaving – then I’m not learning. It’s more complex than that, but explanations would require much delving into the recesses of my rather warped mind, and I’m not in the mood.
Suffice it to say, that I shall soon be waking up at 9am instead of 7am, actually learning and doing work, and not being so mentally drained at the end of the day that I can’t even write.

So, yay for homework!

(Perchance, does anyone else find it horrendously unfair, that to arrange my ‘leaving’ school, I have to get there for a meeting 45 minutes earlier than normal? -.-)